So tomorrow's the big day. What can I say? I've been waiting for tomorrow since April 8, 2009. (The day the trach went in.) Now that tomorrow's here, I'm getting a bit nervous. I mean, our whole lives are about to change...again. I don't know whether to smile, scream, laugh or cry. I can't shake the feeling that this is not real, that it's not really going to happen. I mean, this isn't the first time we thought it was coming out. Last November we were sure he was ready, but he wasn't. Is he really ready this time? I think so. He took his trach out all by himself Sunday! If that's not a sign, I don't know what is.
I just got the call, we have to be there for 9:45 in the morning. No food after midnight and only apple juice till 7:45. Just be glad you won't be there for Mr. Cranky when he doesn't get to eat his breakfast in the morning.
I had plans of picking up today. Moving all the medical supplies out of the living areas and get ready to pack them up, make the house look a little less hospital-ish. But now I'm afraid if I do that, then I'll just have to unpack it all when we come home. I know, I know...I'm being silly. I just can't believe it's here. Now! The trach is coming out tomorrow. We'll be able to go to the store with just a bottle bag soon. Sleep in peace. Not be nervous to take a bath. Not have to wake up in the middle of the night to change his trach out because he got a plug (like last night). We can go swimming. Take a car ride without worrying where the a/c is blowing on him. Sleep at a friends. Get a babysitter. There's so much more, you have no idea. We'll almost be normal. WHAT?!?! I don't even know what that's like anymore. Maybe we'll soon find out.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! The trach's coming out in hours.. hours.. that's almost minutes.
Boy, I sure hope I get some sleep tonight. Keep us in your prayers. Thank you all for your support!!
